So far it blows. Big ass chunks. I am about to fail Excel. Seriously excel. I did awesome in all my other classes but excel will be my Achilles heal. I think everything is falling apart. My child has been getting hives, was diagnosed with asthma, my grandmother died, my best friends nephew passe away. I am planning a seminar for work, have tons to do, Have doctor appointments, choir concerts, I don't know what to do. I can't keep my house clean, dishes done. Laundry washed and folded. I know these things are trivial but when my house is messy I just feel more chaotic and in turmoil. I just had a panic attack because there is no way I am going to finish these 4 more assignments by noon. Its almost midnight. I have to be up at 6 to get the kids ready for school, take my daughter to choir in the morning then get to work. I am beginning to not care if I finish school but that will mean it will hurt me later, like if I need a new job. I have to finish these 2 classes. Take a typing test, and do 2 more non accounting classes. So sad that if I don't finish it won't be because I can't handle accounting, it will be because I can't perform detailed whatif functions and scenarios. It will be because I cannot correctly make tables in HTML. Or pass a typing test because of chronic tendinitis. I know there are worse things to be worrying about. I am just so unbelievably stressed and sad that I don't know what to do. I really just want to go to sleep. Oh sleep I miss you. I don't ever get to sleep in. I never really have a day off. I felt guilty for going shopping this weekend. I should have stayed home and cleaned.
I miss fun. I miss hanging with my family. I miss friends that I probably don't have anymore. I just suck at life.
Sorry I am always venting to you.
