I R Suck. Update and Update.

Seriously the blog thing has not been happening like I would like. I have lots to say but really not sat down to write it out. Here is the mini update for the year.
Finished college in June just 2 days before my youngest turned 4. (Where did that time go?) I got a degree and 2 certificates. Of course I didn't have to worry about finding a job, because I always had one. One I might add that I am very grateful for. Everyone gets along, usually. They understand needs to leave for medical appointments for my child with hypotonia and other medical issues, specialists and ongoing speech therapy. But it is good to be done. I *thought* I would have a ton more time for stuff like blogging, and ebay...HAH! Yeah no...not sure how I coped before with homework and everything school, work and family.

Moving on...G turned 4. He is doing pretty well progressing with his delays. Still not on the level of other kids his age but not too noticeable to others that meet him. Potty training is the big frustration now. He can pee every time, usually. But pooh is another story. He freaks out, tells me he doesn't know how, runs, hides...UGH! It is hard to tell whether he is internally damaged (Thanks to the wonderful doctors that wouldn't listen) or just fearful, or maybe a little of both. We hope that he makes progress before next fall when he is supposed to start kindergarten.

KC did another summer at theater camp (maybe that is where my time went?). She LOVED it. She even had a lead role with a singing solo. I certainly would love to get her some lessons and maybe get her involved in more theater stuff. It costs money which is scarce these days thank to a certain person that refuses to help with things that...well never mind. Tay spent the summer at my parents working as a laborer. He also helped other family members out and earned some cash. It was good for him. He turns 18 in a few weeks. CRAZY. I am so not old enough for him to be my kid. He has a lot to do this year. He needs to pick a college, we need to do some senior pictures. He has some super hard classes, calculus...physics. ACK! KC is taking algebra in 6th grade...I am not smart enough to help with homework anymore.

I also came to a realization that maybe I knew but never really sat down to ponder. My oldest will be graduating from high school on June 13. The day before his baby brother turns 5, yes FIVE! This means one graduates and another begins. HOLY F()
Speaking of the above mentioned grandmother, we also lost her this year as she left to join my grandfather. She had a broken heard for the last 4-5 yrs. My mother, bless her heart, took care of her until the day she died. Spending nights with her at home and even in the hospital till she took her final breath. There is another story to this I will tell later.

The rest of the year will be busy too. My son turns 18, my daughter will be 12 in a couple months, then Christmas....oh my.

But for now I am going to sign off. More to come!

My Personal Magic Kingdom

I have been busy. But I am almost done and will be moving on to other projects long forgotten about. But for now I am posting an essay I wrote for a class I am taking. Let me know your thoughts. I am sure what I wrote is not at all what my teacher expects.

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Q: I would like you to write a 1-3 page double spaced reflection paper on your future career or job. In this paper you should discuss your dream job and how you are going to make that happen. Also integrate the other areas of your life and talk about the ideal of what the next 5, 10, 15, 20 years can look like.

Walt Disney looked at an everglade in Florida and saw a magic kingdom, by following these simple principles: Dream, Dare, Believe, Do.

I want you to create your personal magic kingdom.
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Self Assessment 9

I have been thinking of what I should write for this. Of course there are dream jobs but I am a bit more realistic. I also don’t have regrets. When I first came to GRCC I was on the edge of losing my job with a company I had been at for nearly 7 years. I had learned with the company, grown and possibly even became a little outdated. My field is marketing and design but as the economy tanked, so did the company. The owner put me in the bookkeeping/accounting position as well as my regular duties that were dwindling because of our budget cuts and no money for advertising. He had a hard time finding someone he trusted so he put me there and trained me as I had no real experience in accounting other than working as a teller years before and the ability to balance my checking accounts to the penny.

A year after mostly self learning, and having the mindset of saving the company money anywhere I could, which is much different than the advertising mindset, I was doing very well. Then the owner died suddenly. I was faced with this uncertainty of the company, even more than just the bad economy. I thought about my options, I am not one to dwell on the bad. I am more of the take action and make things work mindset. So with the company slowly going under because of the death and family squabbles because these people had no clue about the company business, I decided to check into making my accounting skills more official. Only a few months after starting school the company closed, but I was fortunate enough because of my connections to find another part time job in the industry I was coming from. The company knew me and my capabilities already and being versatile helps. I have been there almost 2 years now and love it. I really don’t think much about a dream job. The economy still scares me and you just never know.

I could write a paper about how my dream job was to be a great photojournalist or a personal assistant to someone high up. Both of which I feel I would be good doing. But I really don’t know for sure if that would be my dream job. I guess what I am trying to get to is I am already doing what I like and at the same time on a path where I am continuing to grow and learn. I know eventually I will move on to another company for some reason or another because nothing is permanent. To say where I think I might be in 5, 10, or even 20 years is not something I can honestly predict with any accuracy. Looking back I am not where I would have at all guessed I would be even 10 years ago. Especially 20 years ago.

Right now my focus is on doing well and taking care of my family. I don’t think I could write about my dream job because I already have it within my current life and family. Maybe if I were asked this question 20 years ago, I would have a whole different answer for you, but I am being realistic and the dream job I may have had then, is not something I would be happy with now. So I am happy to say I am living my dream and I have no regrets. I believe if I at least continue to appreciate life and take things as they come whether they are planned ahead or come up by surprise, no matter where I end up I will be happy. That to me is the only point to life. That is my magic kingdom.